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Hayden Panettiere has always tried to be a good girl. In the mid-2000s, she was one of the few winsome actresses who made it a point to stay far away from the DUIs, shoplifting charges, and paparazzi crotch shots that were the norm for other starlets her age. The Palisades, N.Y., native was only 16 when she was cast as Heroes’ invincible cheerleader, Claire, a role that made her an instant celebrity — and, it was assumed, the next young lady in line for a public meltdown. “I grew up with the Lindsay Lohans and the Paris Hiltons,” she says one night in early February while she’s curled up in the living room of her Nashville home. “I was in the same generation. I was expected to do the exact same thing. I was watched like a hawk to not fall into the same groove, and I fought against that for so long.”

When GQ asked her in 2007, “When do you intend to become the latest screwed-up girl in Hollywood?” she responded, “Never, never. Cross our fingers.

“You can’t schedule rehab for me,” she continued. “I think I’m going to be one of those boring girls.”

At least until her mid-20s, Panettiere was right. Her life was drama-free, even as she remained as big of a star as ever, playing country troublemaker Juliette Barnes on Nashville. She earned two Golden Globe nominations for best supporting actress and had a daughter, Kaya, with her fiancé, Ukrainian boxer Wladimir Klitschko. Then last October, the 26-year-old made an announcement that she’d spent most of her career trying to avoid: She was going to rehab, taking a hiatus from Nashville to get treatment for postpartum depression. She wasn’t as untroubled as she’d been pretending to be, and she needed help.

“I was always so terrified that people weren’t going to accept me,” she says. “I finally just went, I’m tired of living afraid. I’m tired of living in fear of what people are going to think, so, you know, I’m just going to put it all out there on the table and I’m not going to worry about the judgment.”

Telling the truth turned out to give her the kind of public embrace she’d been looking for all along, with everyone from her Nashville castmates to online commenters saying how appreciative they were of her for speaking out. “The more open I was, the more acceptance I got from people,” she says. “I got so much support and so much love. I was floored. I feel much more exposed, yes, but in a great way.”

In the past, Panettiere hasn’t been openly opinionated about much — she supported Barack Obama in 2008 but isn’t planning to share her political views this election. “I was really young and I’m not sure that I did it right,” she says. But she has strong words for anyone critical of those suffering from postpartum depression, especially those who say the disease is not real. “It’s like you have no idea what you’re talking about,” she says. “If you think for one second that a mother wants to feel that way toward her child, you’re outta your mind. It is one of the most debilitating, scary, guilty feelings that you can ever feel. That a mother would not be able to connect with their child, would not be able to get a grip, or would not know what’s going on, for anybody to say that it’s false or created by us, you must have your head examined.”

At the beginning of the year, she returned to filming Nashville, which begins the second half of its fourth season on March 16. It has been tough for her to go back to playing Juliette, since the character is still in the midst of dealing with postpartum depression (a coincidence, but “it’s definitely interesting how much it has mirrored my life,” she says). “It was strange having to throw myself back into that frame of mind,” she says. “The way I do things is to pull from my own personal experience and sometimes even turn myself into what I’m portraying so that I can pull from my life and step into that person’s shoes by being able to relate.”

In general, the show has turned into more of a daytime soap opera (music CEOs falling off roofs and dying! Liver transplants gone wrong! Children you think are yours that turn out to be your dead brother’s!) than the sassy sing-off between Juliette and country legend Rayna James (played by Connie Britton) that audiences originally signed up for. But fans are still unable to turn away from the mayhem, even if they say they want to. “What’s that line from The Godfather?” Panettiere says. “‘Just when I thought I was out … they pull me back in.’ It’s really so true. We all want to feel better about our lives. We like that drama. Those highs and lows and peaks and valleys of life, that’s what keeps us satisfied. That’s what people like to see.”

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Meet Hayden Panettiere’s Daughter, Kaya Evdokia

Hayden Panettiere just enjoyed her first night of uninterrupted sleep since the Dec. 9 birth of her daughter, Kaya Evdokia, with her fiancé, Wladimir Klitschko — courtesy of her future mother-in-law.

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“Wlad’s mom was desperate to take the baby for a night,” the Nashville star, 25, tells PEOPLE. “She looks like she didn’t get much sleep, but I feel well-rested!”

Adjusting to life as a parent has been “such a surreal experience and so out of body,” for Panettiere and her heavyweight professional boxer beau, 38. “You’re suddenly looking at this little thing like, ‘Oh, that was you in my belly this whole time,’” she says. “[We’re] just getting to know her.”

Recovering from the labor and delivery has also been a bit of a challenge. “I’m limping around. I’m still trying to figure out what [pregnancy] has done to my body, how it’s changed it. What’s temporary and what’s permanent,” Panettiere tells PEOPLE with a laugh, adding that she was “grateful” for her epidural.

“I feel like an 80-year-old woman trying to go down the stairs, you know — please tell me this is temporary! But I know some things will never be the same again.”

So far, little Kaya has been an easy baby despite a few restless nights and what the nursing mom describes as an “insatiable appetite.”

“She’s really so sweet,” Panettiere says. “I’m sure that’s the way it’s meant to be, because when they are putting you through the wringer you’re like, ‘You are so lucky you’re cute!’”

For more photos of the family, pick up the Jan. 12 issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Jan. 3

 

Nude with Tyler Shields

A rare outtake of Hayden Panettiere posing nude with photographer Tyler Shields has surfaced from her 2009 photoshoot. The American photographer is famous for taking provocative and eerie images of celebrities.